http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/ Organized Chaos - Rants of a Chaotic Mind Tue, 04 Jul 2006 21:25:05 PDT http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2006. Relationships Writing Family Issues http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/archive/52.html Wed, 05 Jul 2006 02:24:03 GMT I start a new job on Monday. YAY! Finally. It's doing HR work for a "big" company but it sounds really great. I like working with people - even if sometimes they can be such pains. Hopefully things go great there. I'm on "probation" for the job so I hope I do really well so they'll keep me (and I get the company benefits...heh heh heh). Other than that life's been pretty much up and down (as usual). "Heart-to-heart" discussions with my mom have been happening quite a lot recently and I realize that working out my emotions is better for everyone. I realize now that the only one I'm... (more) http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/comments?id=52 http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/archive/51.html Mon, 05 Jun 2006 04:13:33 GMT Yet again another job interview that went nowhere. *Sigh* Meh. I'll figure something out...hopefully. Sometimes I'm beginning to wonder whether I should even bother trying to apply for other jobs. Then again, being at a job that uses none of my talents and bores me to sleep (literally, although I try not to nod off) urges me to find something more...palatable. Granted, I do nothing for four hours out of my day but still, at least give me something to stay awake. * * * * Anyway, I've taken up drawing and writing again (more so the writing than the drawing). I guess the... (more) http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/comments?id=51 http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/archive/50.html Wed, 19 Apr 2006 04:13:03 GMT I was originally planning on writing something relatively happy (having a stable, although underpaying, job and a house to live in) but I'm still stuck here with my idiotic and horrible father. Just conversing with him makes me angry. I turned off the amplifier downstairs which was making the television he was "watching" too loud. He got all angry and slammed the screen door; all the while mumbling about how apparently we think we're gods. WTF?!? It's already eleven here and my mother has trouble sleeping as is. On top of that, there's my grandmother, brother, and I who are also... (more) http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/comments?id=50 http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/archive/49.html Fri, 02 Dec 2005 03:55:31 GMT I know that I haven't written in here in a while. Haha. How many times have I written that? Anyway, as Christmas and my birthday approaches, I begin to wonder what will become of me. 2005 has been uneventful until recently. I quit my only industry-related job in June. I goofed off for the summer (and a bit longer) on the pretense that I was going to re-evaluate my life and get it to where I wanted it to go. I've only been working since October 17th. It's a temp job doing boring and repetitive paperwork (is that the only thing I'm good at doing?). The people there are nice so I... (more) http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/comments?id=49 http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/archive/48.html Wed, 28 Sep 2005 02:30:39 GMT My computer decided to randomly get infected with malware and spyware yesterday. So, in order to combat that and forget about dealing with removing viruses, I opted to format my computer. I had previously partitioned my hard drive the last time I had formatted the drive so I thought that whatever I had saved onto my other drive would be safe. On top of that, usually when you format you have the option to decide which partion to delete. Unfortunately, it didn't give me that option. The computer decided to delete both partitions. So, I lost all of my graphic design work, my websites,... (more) http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/comments?id=48 http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/archive/47.html Mon, 26 Sep 2005 02:46:48 GMT Things have been slow lately. I still don't have a job. I've been spending my time in between jobs learning HTML, CSS and Photoshop. I've applied at a job agency in the hopes that they can get me a job soon. Luckily, I'm currently receiving the much needed employment insurance. I've got to help my mom pay the bills so this insurance will help us until I get a new job. I've also updated my portfolio website. I had to change the name of it because I found out that someone else had the same name. Right now I'm working on my personal website. The layout is done but now it's... (more) http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/comments?id=47 http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/archive/46.html Mon, 01 Aug 2005 22:29:18 GMT Moments ago I found out that not only is my "father" a marijuana user (I knew this last year) but he's also a cocaine addict. Heh. That explains why he tried to strangle me in February. I know that there's this show on A & E called "Intervention" where a family brings in a psychologist (or is it psychiatrist?) to help a family member who's just about to go over the edge due to drugs. I'd call that show...but I know that it wouldn't help. My "father's" already gone over the edge. I know that there's no point in helping him...he'd just kill us for trying. Within a year... (more) http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/comments?id=46 http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/archive/45.html Mon, 18 Jul 2005 22:40:00 GMT I just got an invitation to go and hang out with some old high school friends downtown. I opted to say no when I got a look at the list. The group of people were all people that have grown up together...ones that have known each other since they were little kids. I saw my name on that list. It looked....out of place. I know that it was only placed there out of obligation (one of my old high school friends is going). I haven't kept in contact with most of them....well, none of them really. So, I don't really see the point in going. The only person that's going that I want to... (more) http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/comments?id=45 http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/archive/44.html Thu, 02 Jun 2005 15:14:51 GMT Today I picked up (literally...as it was on the floor of the Go Train car I was sitting in) today's edition of Dose. It's one of the newest free daily newspapers/magazines in Toronto (where I'm at). Personally, I love it when things are free (who doesn't?). But I love it even more when good things are free. I love the content (just your general news, entertainment, club hopping and some other stuff) but it's not the content that I really love, it's the way they write the content. I'm used to reading boring articles in well-publicized newspapers and magazines (think the Metro, the... (more) http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/comments?id=44 http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/archive/43.html Thu, 26 May 2005 16:01:05 GMT Lately I've been thinking about my old high school friend, Liam. He was probably the coolest guy I knew back in high school. He was smart (more so at the maths and sciences than anything else), funny, charismatic, caring....he was my ideal personality-wise. Even my little brother loved him. I never did figure out why we never hooked up. I could kind of guess that he liked me back then but he never said anything. I knew that I liked him a lot back then. I just never said anything to him. I guess it got to the point that we were too good as friends to try and risk... (more) http://organizedchaos.blogdrive.com/comments?id=43